Wow !!! it's been 3 years since the last post, how and why is time playing with me like this?

My life has been nothing but a blink.... a breath.... a hiccup.... a sneeze....

I'm opening my eyes and everything burns. everything blurred.

I see a bridge, I'm crossing it, I'm almost over it.

Am I the bridge I need to cross and get over? Bridge to what? I'm confused as always, and yet the clarity of my emotions is frighteningly blinding, burning, crippling.

No wonder I'm losing my eyesight along with the rest of my human capacities....

Am I becoming the crumbling stones of what used to be a path, a destination, a temple?

Am I the pounded dirt of a family home, or the dust one kicks in anger? Am I a rock, a root, a pebble, a leaf, a feather?

and again what would be my purpose?

if I was a rock, would you stand on me or hit me with myself?

if I was a root, would you grow with me or trip and fall?

if I was a pebble, would you collect me or throw me in the river?

if I was a leaf, would you gather rain drops on me to quench your thirst or crumble me?

and if I was a feather, would you let me float in the wild wind or wear me on your neck and nestle me on your heart?

If I was, would you be?